Anxiety anxiety.

So compazine is an anti-psychotic. I'm not too worried about it, as it's anti-nausea propreties are also well known. It makes you hella sleepy, but that's all to the good, really.

No, the one I'm worried about, ironically, is the ativan. Also know as lorazepam, it doesn't really do anything for nausea. It makes you forget that you were nauseated,or that you were worries about it.

I have a bad history with such drugs. Back when I was young, poor, and a new mommy, a doctor gave me a similar drug to treat back spasms. (And probably also because he thought I was anxious. I was, but for entirely justifiable reasons. We will save the rant about not drugging people who are responding normally to bad situations for another time.)

It took two days on Valium for me to start talking about suicide, a development that surprised even me. It is an experience I'd very much like to not repeat, and thinking abut it is making me feel anxious and slightly nauseated.

Which is funny, in a sick way. I plan to talk to the doctors about it.

(Please note that I may be nauseated, but I hope never to be nauseous. If I am, pipe up and say something. Maybe I can take a breath mint or hide under the blankets or something.)